It would have been better parenting for me to think soccer, debate-club and digging for worms. But I didn't. The words, "Your're pregnant!" immediately brought to mind dolls, dresses, and massive fluffy bed skirts - like Clara has in The Nutcracker. Having a boy never crossed my mind. So when I ... Read More
Midlife musings is where I can write about my thoughts that don't necessarily have to do specifically with me as a mom. Midlife musings are conversations you and I might have if we sat together in a coffee house hanging out after dropping the kids off at school.
I now officially wonder, what is midlife for women? Mathematically, I'm likely at middle age or I've passed it by. Is it a "crisis?" I'll turn fifty this year and I'm starting to feel a little "restless." Although, I confess, it doesn't feel much like a crisis. It feels more like an experience, ... Read More
At 39, I felt a stirring - something that made no sense to me. Each thought dripped onto my brain like a tiny droplet of water tumbling off a leaf after a spring shower. The droplets intruded, "baby...mother...baby...be a mom...you'll regret not doing this." I literally took a terrifying leap and ... Read More
My heart goes out to kids today - growing up is stressful. Screens, bullies, being over scheduled, pressures to perform. And in between all this, I desperately want my boys to grow up to celebrate and see value in all people. I want them to stand up for people in marginalized communities - it seems ... Read More
I stared desperately out the window, willing myself to be strong as steel. I'd been listening to my baby scream and cry, cough and sputter for thirty minutes now. My sweet baby boy with the round trusting blue eyes and the lashes I would have gladly donated a body part to have. With his delicious ... Read More